When you first think about that statement, it seems crazy. But when you really think about it, it makes perfect sense.
Weightlifters have to struggle through resistance to gain strength. Kids have to struggle through falling off their bikes to gain the strength to get back on and try again.
Sometimes, facing our fears and weaknesses can become not only our biggest strength but a great testimony.
I’ve been through a LOT in my life. A LOT. A lot of struggles. A lot of pain. A lot of junk that I remember thinking “WHY ME?!” And in the midst of those struggles, I used to hear from people “Someday, you will be able to use this to help someone else.” **Cue the eye roll and whiny voice** ” But whyyyyyy do I have to go through it at ALLLL?!”
It’s a great sentiment to tell people that their struggles will be someone else’s strength some day. I guess I just didn’t really stop to think about how it could actually be MY strength too.
I’ve been able to speak with young women who are in abusive relationships. I’ve been able to talk to young women who struggle with being let down by someone who they’d placed on a pedestal. I’ve been able to talk to women who are battling with the emotions that come with empty arms.
I’m still affected by all of those things. Some days, it feels like the blind leading the blind. But other days… Oh, other days it feels like all the pain and tears and struggling were worth it just to feel that connection with someone who needed to not just hear the words “I know how you feel” but needed to actually FEEL that I know how they feel.
Tonight, I was sent a link to a sermon by an old friend of mine. It’s from Elevation Church and a series called “How to be Brave”. The one I listened to tonight was called “See It Through” and in it he says:
“What if God wants to show you your purpose, but He wants you to see it through your pain?”
Maybe I’m starting to see my purpose through my pain.
Do I still wish that I didn’t have to struggle? Sure. Do I still wish that God would lighten up with the trials already? Of course. Do I still wish that I didn’t have to feel the pain? Absolutely.
But I am grateful for them. My past has helped me create my present.
If I’d not dealt with a LOT of the things I dealt with all those years ago, I wouldn’t be as strong as I am now. If I’d not dealt with cowering from a raised hand, I wouldn’t have learned how to defend myself. If I’d not dealt with constant comparisons, I wouldn’t have learned how to place more worth in my opinion of myself. If I’d not dealt with the pain of knowing what empty arms feel like, I may never have appreciated how the crook of my elbow might be the perfect pillow.
We grow through our pain. We gain strength in our struggles. We gain faith through fear. And God knew that we would before we even dipped our toes in the pool of uncertainty.
Even now, J and I are facing a situation that we may be able to use to help others further down the road. Oh, how I wish we weren’t facing it. How I wish we knew what the outcome would be. How I wish it didn’t hurt so much.
But oh, how it’s making us stronger. How it’s making us dig in, dig deep and hold tightly. To each other and to our faith.
Oh, how we are gaining strength from our struggle.